Dreams During Pregnancy

 It's a known fact that pregnancy brings about some very strange dreams.  I have been experiencing this first hand with this pregnancy for sure.  Every night I close my eyes I lay there wondering what I will come up with next.  I think all of the hormonal changes in my body bring up a whole different set of emotions.  Maybe some I would typically try to suppress, or some perhaps I didn't even know existed.  But lately my dreams not only seem strange, but they seem more intense too; often times waking me in the middle of them, once even in a full swing punch (sorry Marcus).

Last night I dreamed that I was just a week or so away from delivering the baby when I received a letter in the mail.  The letter was addressed to me and from my doctor.  When I read the letter I was a bit baffled.  It told me that at my 20 week scan they had made a mistake, and that in fact I was going to be having a little girl.  I remember being mad! I had nearly everything ready for the baby, and not one ounce of pink. I woke up and felt a blog post in the works!

Sometimes I wonder if dreams really do have meanings.  They say when you dream you are flying you feel like you are on top of your life.  Or there's that dream where you are running as fast as you can but going absolutely nowhere, literally standing in place.  I often dream of places from my past, especially my old house, or people I know of but have never actually met.  What does it all mean? Why do we dream and what significance do our dreams play in our life?  I think that could be something interesting to study.  To learn what is known about dreams and what is still in question.  Marcus always dreams he's a super hero, or doing awesome bike tricks or mountain climbs.  Maybe his dreams mean he's still a kid at heart? Maybe he dreams those types of dreams because in real life he is so busy, and always going that it's the only chance he really gets to stop, have a break and some fun1   I find myself often dreaming about arguments and fights with family, bringing up some of the old scars I have from over the years.  Does that mean I am holding on to feelings that need to be let out and only seem to come to surface when I am not awake?  Do I perhaps suppress these feelings when I need to be working through them? Why do they always feel it necessary to pop into my dreams?

I don't know what my dreams mean, or anyone else's for that matter, but I think I'm going to buy a book and see if I can start figuring it all out! Maybe one day I can even become the master dream reader and can tell people what their dreams mean! Now that would be cool!

....or perhaps it is way too early and I should have another cup of coffee before I hurt myself. ;)

To be continued I'm sure........

Good News!

Yesterday I got some really good news I thought I would share.  I've been working a temporary job at Fidelity Investments (for a girl on maternity leave) for just over 3 months now.  This job is due to come to an end on December 2nd. I've gotten myself to a place where I really am enjoying the company and the people I work with, so I was a bit sad that the end was near.   I have been job searching for some time for options after this one ends.  I've been interviewing and working with recruiters to find another job, but after nothing has come through I decided that I would take a few months off and just stay home.  Although I was actually looking forward to a bit of time off, I was still stressing about what I was going to do when I was ready to go back to work. I'd have to start all over, in a new role, at a new company, and go through the dreadful interview process again.  It just really didn't sound fun.  So needless to say, yesterday came as a good surprise. :)

One of the guys I work for asked if I would give him a call to discuss a potential opportunity he had found for me.  At one of their management meetings this week the managers expressed frustration over the fact they do not get any administrative support and are in need of some extra help.  He told me that they had been impressed with my work, and that they were creating a new position that they felt I would be perfect for. Not only were they creating this position, but they would be willing to hold it and not fill it until I was ready to return to work after the baby was born.  This new role also allows me to work from home 2 days a week as well giving me more time with my kids and less time in the car. He wanted me to think it over for a bit and get back to him with my thoughts. I couldn't stop smiling. I can't tell you how good that made me feel.  It's strange how things can really turn around so quickly.  I feel great about this new role.  I know I love the company and I work well with the people here.  I am excited that I will have the option for tuition reimbursement through work allowing me to continue my education.  I really feel like it just filled a big gap I've been dreading for a long time. 

I absolutely love this time of year and all the fun things it brings. I've always been big on family traditions and keeping the holiday spirit alive. When I had children of my own it was like the Holidays became magical again and I absolutely loved it!  Lately there have been some hard things happening in my life in respect to my parents and family. Current things and things that have happened over years and years that I am working hard to overcome. I'm trying to stay positive as best as I can.  The opportunity at work has definitely helped. I think it was just the boost I needed to set me on the right track.  I am so blessed to have what I do in my life.  I have beautiful, healthy children, a fantastic boyfriend who does so much, a beautiful home, a good paying job, a chance to further my education, the list could go on and on.  There really isn't much I could ask for that I don't already have.

Sometimes in our lives we have to get to a point that we accept the fact that there are people; who no matter what you do or how hard you try, won't ever change. And although it is hard to accept, we must be grateful for what we do have and life must go on. Sometimes when I get down I think I just need to sit back and remember that I do have people in my life that care and are there for me whenever I need them. All I can do is strive to be the best me possible, and not let others get me down. Life is too short to not be happy and smile. :)

Happy Holidays everyone and god bless. 

Shhhhh.....

I've got a secret project in the works. Photos coming soon!

Stay tuned..............................

My Hot Sushi Date

Sad but true, I haven't been able to eat sushi for almost 7 months now. I miss it so bad! It's one of the things I used to "splurge" on whenever I could ...that is before I got pregnant.

Even though I can't have proper sushi (raw) I can however eat tempura (cooked) rolls. So, yesterday while we were burning some time and waiting to pick up Ambria from dance, my little man and I decided to have ourselves a sushi date!

Now don't let his expression fool you! He might not look excited here, but you have no idea how much his face lit up when I asked him if he wanted to go to "sooshi" for dinner.  I guess I should explain.  This my friends, is not your average ordinary 4 year old. Oh no!!!  This kid eats beats, mushrooms, olives, onions, ALL veggies (loves them), pretty much anything you put in front of him.  I've never met a kid who will try and actually like so many different foods that are either healthy or that most kids usually complain don't taste good.

So, we placed our order for some rolls and a plate full of sashimi (straight raw fish - with nothing else). Then Kayden proceeded to devour an entire bowl of edamame (or what he likes to call "beans").

When the cute little waitress brought out our order she looked at me a little funny as if she wanted to say "how rude of you to order all of this stuff.  Is your kid eating today or just you?".  I simply smiled at her, thanked her for her service, and giggled as she walked away knowing what was about to happen next.

One by one Kayden loaded up his little plate (above).  He was grinning from cheek to cheek. I couldn't help notice the waitress standing in the back corner watching him ever so quietly (looking rather amazed I might add).  I'm sure she was thinking to herself what most people think (and often times say out loud) whenever I take my son to eat sushi.

"What 4 year old kid likes fish? And for goodness sake what 4 year old kid would EVER try it RAW?!?!?!"

So she kept on watching.....as he leaned over and grabbed some fish....

 But wait, he must first dip it in the soy sauce silly........

gets himself good and ready.....and then.....

Whoa la! There you have it! It's that simple.

The kid is a sushi eating machine!!!

The reactions people give him when they watch him eat sushi will never ever get old! I find it rather entertaining actually!

I LOVE IT... and I love you Kayden, my little sushi eater!

Nursery and Baby Shopping

Marcus and I went baby shopping today, finally for the first time in nearly 7 months of being pregnant! It's so fun picking out little things for him and getting excited.  We decided that we are doing a different bedroom set that all matches.  We have a crib and I bought a changing table but we are going to sell those and get the entire set below:

 

Now I've got to decide what theme to do. I've seen a couple cute sets with monkeys or puppy dogs.  I really want to paint his room too.  I feel like I am running out of time!

Trimester 3....Here I Come!

Wow, tomorrow starts trimester 3! I'm in the home stretch now! I can't believe how fast it's gone by really.  I am now just about 7 months pregnant.  We had a doctor appointment yesterday to test my sugar levels for diabetes.  I won't get results for a few days.  They drew blood, and I didn't pass out. Yes, I am proud!  The doctor said the baby is looking great.  His heart rate was right in the 140's, he is growing right on target and everything looks good.  There is no better feeling than hearing he is healthy!  I've got a few more weeks of work, and then I get to stop for a bit and focus some time on getting things ready for him and for the holidays.  It's still crazy to think not to long from now we will have a brand new baby around. :) I'm getting really excited.  Happy Friday Y'all!

Busy, Busy, Busy

With the Holidays around the corner my head is spinning with all of the things I need to get done.  Thanksgiving planning/cooking, Christmas planning/shopping, holiday decorating! AHHH! Not to mention Marcus's boys will be here soon - so I need to get things set up for them, bedrooms, clothes school etc. Then there is the issue with a second car.  We need a second car already but now we need one that seats 8! So much to do, and so little time. Sometimes I feel like there isn't enough time in the day to get everything done. 

Saturday of this week starts my third trimester. It has really come so fast.  This little guy is going to be here before we know it! I have so much to do to get ready for him also. Being this is baby #3 I'm not sure I plan to have a baby shower, but I need to get a bunch of things like a swing, a stroller/car seat, etc.   I feel so unprepared for him and something tells me he is coming early. I better get moving.

I am really looking forward to spending some time with my kids, Marcus's boys, and the family over the holidays. It's been nearly a year since we were all together so I think it will be a fantastic way to spend the Holiday Season!